I’ve been praying for a blizzard…
Dec 3rd, 2008 by woodstone
… even just a localized one.
Say at about 39.5 degrees latitude and -104.7 longitude (yes, that’s roughly where you’ll find Woodstone Prairie).
I was thinking that 2′ of snow should be just about right. But then I felt badly praying for something that would inconvenience so many people, so I starting wondering about a localized storm. God could just stack up the clouds in such a way to dump a couple of feet of snow on Woodstone Prairie and leave the rest of the state alone.
But that might attract media attention, I can imagine how it would look-
“Freak Storm Dumps 2′ of Snow on Acreage East of Town, Rest of Colorado Dry! Film at 10!”
No, that wouldn’t be good…
It’s probably not fair for me to pray for something that could cause hardship to my neighbors anyway… so I’ve stopped praying for a blizzard (although I AM watching the weather forecast carefully, just in case).
The weather map looks promising, like there’s chance we’ll get snow… We’ll need, at a minimum, 6″-10″ on the ground tomorrow to be snowed in.
Being snow in is, of course, the goal…
…because M has an appointment with the pdoc tomorrow, and I REALLY don’t want to go.
His pdoc is a lovely, caring, intelligent person. I’d love to have her for a friend, aunt, neighbor, etc… but trying to work with her has been extremely difficult and stressful lately, and I’m not looking forward to seeing her tomorrow.
She’s been after me to bring M in for an appointment, so a few weeks ago I forced myself to call and schedule one. At the time she was out of town, and December seemed far away… But she’s back in town now, and the appointment is tomorrow, and I’d be thrilled beyond words to have a good excuse for canceling.
I know she needs to see M, to do her job as his doctor… but she’s been “checked out” for so long, leaving us on our own through some really difficult times, that my trust in her is as low as it’s ever been.
And she’s still talking about an inpatient stay or at least day treatment… and I still disagree on the need for that level of care, and have very little confidence that taking that step would be helpful for M.
I worry that seeing her makes it more likely that she’ll decide to push the issue… insist on a higher level of care… possibly even order a 72 hour hold.
It’s just about three weeks to Christmas… I don’t want to take a chance with M being inpatient during the holidays.
So I’ll keep watching the sky. It’s heavy with clouds and it’s very cold outside… but still no flakes of snow. It looks close though…
Maybe I should take my car and get it washed. It always rains right after I wash the car, maybe it will trigger some snow instead.
Oooh, Oooh, Oooh! I am praying to be snowed in too… let’s believe in prayer. You know what they say… when two or three are gathered
LOL Here’s to snow!
That was Heather… not Iona LOL She must have blogged last
I’ll be praying for your blizzard! And I’ll be praying that you’ll be able to find a new pdoc for M. The story about what happened to your friend’s daughter sends chills up my spine and I don’t blame you at all for being edgy about this visit!
Let it snow, let it snow, let it snow!
i’ll join all of you in praying for snow or how about if the car won’t start? Would that work as well? As ;you know, i love being snowed in, if just doesn’t happen nearly often enough around here. Maybe i should come out there for a visit. . .
What happened to your friend is more than awful ~ i can’t even express how angry i was just reading about it. It is hard to believe that your pdoc would do such a thing; has she changed her approach that much? (i’m hoping i don’t know the people involved. Do i?)
Love you guys.
I’m so sad to hear about your friend. I don’t blame you a bit in wishing for snow…hummm snow would be good for me too. I have to go to mandatory cookie training (if I miss the meeting, we can’t sell cookies! that doesn’t seem fair, especially since I know what I’m doing!)
I do hope that if you do have to go to the appointment that everything goes well for you. I’ll pray that M is having an awesome day and pdoc has no reason to suggest horrible treatment options for him.
Oh, dear! I wish I could send some of our snow your way!
Perhaps some kind neighbor will let the air out of your tires??
Praying for you and M.
Okay, as a person who has unfortunately recently had to understand a lot of what you are talking about as it pertains to mental health providers, I encourage you to make this your last visit to this doctor (or not at all) and find another.
What I have realized is that you can really like the person as just that, a person, but they don’t work at all as your provider. That’s kinda what I got from your post in the middle . . . you like her as a friend, neighbor, etc., but not as a provider. You have to sift through that and recognize why you feel a need to stay with them . . . you like them . . . but that has nothing to do with the effective care or not.
The next thing I realized is that a provider may be just what you need, until they aren’t what you need anymore. Again, it sounds like this provider may have been good at the front end, but is no longer working for you. Sometimes a provider has only so much to, well, provide, and then their effectiveness is satiated. It’s then time to move on.
We’ve moved on from a therapist that wasn’t working for us, but we hung on for quite a time because “we liked her.” A situation forced us to consider someone else at the same time, and he was the best thing since sliced bread. Luckily, not only was I going to drop the first one, but she initiated it as she really did want what was best for my son. But, though the next therapist has been fab, I know his effectiveness may diminish in time. As long as we gain one good piece of information at each session, we’ll stay on. Once a couple sessions come and go with no benefit, then I know to move on now.
I’m at that point with the psychiatrist. It took a learning curve for me, but I know when we find another with a better fit, things will FEEL better because they will BE better.
Okay, this got long. I need to copy a lot of this for a post and elaborate further. It’s really important information to share our experiences with others who may need to seek access to the mental health establishment.
Trust your instincts!
-Cindy
Hugs. And the situation with your friend is unforgivable. “Danger to self and others” is in the regs for a reason. Damn them. Take some deep breaths. Pray for strength. And do what you have to do for the good of your child and yourself.
You can’t go, as I recall you have a appointment with ME tomorrow. Its for 8am and we made it back in 1976, so it does take precedent. Don’t be late. In fact you best leave now. It’s a long flight.
(bring Mac and cheese)
Oh no! I can’t believe they stepped all over your friend’s civil rights like that. I wish you could find a different pdoc. But I know (from experience) how hard it is to find a decent pediatric psychiatrist.
On the other hand, you wrote: “she’s been “checked out” for so long, leaving us on our own through some really difficult times, that my trust in her is as low as it’s ever been.” Have you told her this?
(((HUGS))) You are in my prayers. If you don’t get that blizzard, maybe you could do what any responsible adult would do — feign sickness.
I sent a longer note by e-mail. I really think you should just not go. You don’t need a reason. Your reason is that you don’t think he needs to see a doctor right now because he is fine.
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